Bear with my ambiguity once again. Yes, I am psycho, and I rarely reveal exactly what I'm trying to say. This web log serves the primary purpose of venting emotions that I want to share but fail to do so because of my own insecurities. Are my entries cryptic? Well, yeah, but I can't help it...

I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm frustrated. I hate it when your hopes and aspirations come crashing down right in front of your face. It's funny... I always laugh when I find myself in these situations. They're so ridiculous I don't know what to do with myself. I just have to laugh, because that's my way of dealing with everything.

Forget the period of time from July to September. My foolish pursuits are ended indefinitely. I'm not complaining, but why do these things happen to me? I'm so curious. Have I not learned my lesson yet? Is there some other reason? No complaints, just curiosity...

Man...these cycles of highs and lows kill me.

My resolution: In all things, I just have to stand firm on that solid foundation. Otherwise, I might despair and fall to even lower depths. "All other ground is sinking sand."

I also agree that I need to think about why I get happy, sad, angry, etc. Why am I happy? Probably because I got my way. Why am I sad or angry? I must not have gotten my way. It's so simple... But why should I be happy? And why should I be sad or angry? The answers are obvious... My emotions need to be in line with something that is far greater than "my way." I should be happy because He is glorified and He knows what is best for me. I should be sad or angry when anything, including myself, fails to give Him glory.